i'm taking a ride with my best friend.

a house boat + a rubber dingy + night time, do not mix. att all. the evening started really well, nat, helen, jen, christina, harriet, and me where all having fun at  'the sisterhood of sabrina, pizza, and tea party' we shared plenty of laughs, stories and jokes. we ate lots of pizza, chocolate and such, and watched sabrina the teenaged witch, the movie. so around elevenish we were chatting away when we heard a tapping on a window, we got up and saw a rubber dingy, we screamed, we turned of the light and screamed some more. i have never been more scared in my entire life before. after around ten/fifteen minutes of screaming and being freaked out, we find out it was only ben and danny. i now hate them both.

i have my itunes on shuffle and depeche mode 'never let me down again' came on, how appropriate. i was looking forward to tomorrow, now i'm not, alot can change in just under a minute. i wish some people where more considerate and that i was less emotional. the start of the week is a downer already and it's only just eleven minutes past two in the morning. joy. please pick up, thankyou.

i don't know what to do at the moment to be honest, i could go for option a or option b, option b seems like the thing to do, like the thing i should do, so is that the only reason why i'm warming up to the idea? even if i did choose option b, option a would be in my mind constantly. someone make all these decisions for me and take away all these unpleasant feelings...