there's nothing to do here, so just lie and complain.

it's so hot in my house, just like everyone else's. i'm going to have trouble falling asleep tonight. i've been sitting on the top of my stairs for the past hour or so, simply because it's cooler here.

progress has been made, little by little we're getting somewhere. things are getting better. i'm having a lot more fun, and i'm doing a whole lot more. tomorrow we are going to yoga and then possibly swimming before we have our 'sisterhood of the traveling pants' film night at jen's and hat's.

my family are thinking of getting another dog, another collie to keep oreo company. this is getting me further away from my wishes of having two cats. one which is ginger and to be named gertrude, and the other to be named maca, which is serbien for cat. i guess i'll have to wait until i have my own place to have my cats. when on holiday in cyprus there were so many stray cats, and they wouldn't leave me alone! i miss the cats, especially the crazy kitten who followed me for a while.

shame i don't drive.

this is a gift it comes with a price.

summer is starting, and so far i am having a BLAST. i saw lemuria on the 13th, it was a hell of a lot of fun. from the 14th i spent a week in cyprus for my brothers wedding...lets just say that was eventful. i came home and saw colour me wednesday that wednesday, aha never noticed they played on a wednesday until now... i loved spending the evening with my favourite people, minus christina & david. it was good seeing emily too!

so it was my birthday on friday, i woke up to a empty house. my parents where somewhere near manchester due to the fact that my brother and newly crowned sister in law where having their reception on my birthday. joy. i was unable to attend, well i was but i didn't really feel like going, plus there was a chance i wouldn't of made it back for brand new the next day. i spent the morning alone to be joined by christina and then later nat and helen, and of we headed for london. i'll only say this once, but thankyou puff and helen for telling tgi's that it was my birthday because we got a free slice of fudge cake, and fucking hell it was heaven.

helen and nat spent the night at mine and woke up early on saturday morning, we had a big day ahead of us. liberty, topshop, forbidden planet and fopp where some of the shops we visited in london. we also made sure we made a visit to abercrombie & fitch for the topless modle and beautiful staff members. we have since decided that we must stop by every time we go to london, because lets face it girls who doesn't want a polaroid with a topless male model? 

wagamama was where we had our dinner, and my oh my how excited i was to have my chicken katsu curry. the only bad thing about that dish is that it's too good to leave any on your plate. so you eat and eat until it's all gone. BIG mistake, all the way to hmv forum i felt like i was going to be sick, thankfully i wasn't, although the half an hour we stuck on the train for in a tunnel did make me feel light headed from all the heat. brand new was immence. they played play crack the sky, which is one of my favourites along with many others which i love. i lost my shoe during part of their set, well like ten seconds, and got it back again. i got to see some good friends too, which was lovely. it had been too long.

i just spent £65 with just a click of a button. damn you lovely topshop.com i only just paid off my card the other day. another thing im spending money on is vitamin water. i'm stupidly addicted. it's just too good not to have. i dyed my hair today, using up two boxes of hair dye, this tells me its been a while since my last hair cut, as my hair is much thicker than before. the result of using two boxes instead of one is that my hair smells like peroxide.i do like the colour so it's all good.

once again i have quite the eventful week, monday: i am going to uni to collect my work, tuesday: i am going to yoga and we are having our snood film night, wednesday: it is nat's birthday so we are doing whatever her heart desires, thursday: i am seeing blur, friday: we are going to brighton and saturday after work we headed to the roxy for our geek birthday outing.

lately i've been having dreams where no matter how far fetched they are, they seem like reality and when i wake up it takes me a while to realise that they were only dreams. i'm unsure to why this is, maybe its because i want parts of the dream to be reality so bad, that i convince myself if only for a minute that the dream is reality?

i apologise for the length of this blog, it seems i hadn't blogged much recently and that a lot had happened in the past few days.

Of the truth in chapters of our minds.

goodbye good friend, you will never be forgotten.

it is such a terrible thing, when someone dies young, at the age of 50.. my mum turns 50 this year. he was such an inspiration to many. i send my love to his family and loved ones. may he rest in peace and reach his neverland. like many now i am listening to his gift to us, his music. this is such a great loss and it is disgusting that people are throwing around jokes about him. he was a great man, sure fame may have got to him but he still inspired so MANY of us.

the first cd i ever brought was one of his albums. i would sit with my brother and watch the tape we had of one of his tours, over and over again. trying to moonwalk like him. i grew up watching michael jackson.

 

no one will ever moonwalk like him.

he will be greatly missed.

god bless x

i want my hands in your hair.

michael cera is beautiful. its pretty safe to say i love him, well okay not love, but i like him a lot a lot. his new film comes out on my birthday, i like to think of this coincidence as a birthday present from michael himself! (if only)

tomorrow is a very busy day. i have to get up early to wash my hair so it's all lovely for......LEMURIAAAAAAAAAAA. i am stupidly excited for this gig, and lemuria aren't even headlining, they're support for some band i've never heard of, but who gives a shit not me? know why? cause i get to seeee LEMURIAAAAAAAAAA. okay so where was i, i have to get up to wash my hair before work, get to work a bit early so i can buy leggings for uniform, work for four hours and then meet christina, head up to london to meet up with natalie and helen for a WAGAMAMAAAAAAAA, and then meet up with everyone else who is going to LEMURIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. if you hadn't already figured it out, even though i already told you, i'm stupidly excited to see this band! 

so yes a busy day, which doesn't help that the next morning i am flying out to cyprus, and the fact that i am still packing. i love to travel, but not when it comes to packing, i always worry that i've forgotten something.. and the feeling doesn't go away until the third day that i'm away? pahhhhhhhhhhhh. i'm currently packing my hand luggage. i'm failing at it to. i got distracted and am now writing this, i've even gotten distracted from this stupid facebook.

i think i better end this blog here, i've completely forgotten what u was going to write about....

a movie script ending

i want to see all of the following (prepare to scroll):

and a lot a lot more.

i went to see these battlegrounds, with battlesounds.

recently there have been days where i've felt lost. there have been days where i've been so angry. there have been days where all i wanted to do was cry. there are many reasons behind these feelings and some of them i am aware of and some of them i am not.

my art and design foundation course is over, no more will i take the a40 bus journey to wycombe every week day morning, no more will i have to buy stupid things otherwise useless to me for my art work. truth be told i miss it, i miss having a project, an aim, because right now i'm playing the waiting game. and let me tell you something, it's not fun.

i've decided i'm not going to stop doodling, i shall carry a small sketchbook and then when i want i can doodle away. i'll have a book of illustrations of the whereabouts/happenings in my life.

i'm going to see dinosaur jr. tomorrow. i'm seeing lemuria on saturday. i am going to cyprus on sunday. i am going to egypt for a day on tuesday. i am seeing colour me wednesday on the wednesday after i get back. i am going out for a meal on my birthday with some friends. and i am going to brand new the day after. this month is well planned and i'm looking forward to it.

the ice is getting thinner underneath, me and you..

a death cab for cutie song was played in the season final of gossip girl, A M A Zing, so my sister in law (well shes not my sister in law yet, but she will be next friday) lent me season one of gossip girl. and my oh my i was hooked on the first ten minute, putting aside the good music and amazing clothes the main thing that got my attention were the hotties. and they are not lacking in that department. kudos to the casting crew of gossip girl, nicely done.

i pretty much watched the whole of season one in under two days. i now have nothing to do. i need to get my hands on season two. but alas no money in the account apart from ten pound which i need to keep hold of so that i can enjoy a wagamama on saturday with natalie and the others before lemuria (so excited). so i have two options i search wide across the internet in the hopes of finding a website that has the full episodes up, or i hope there's enough points on my mums nectar card to rent season two from blockbuster.

my new obsession has begun.

xo xo gossip girl

to find in your eyes, my best surprise.

You and me, always, you held my head above the waves.

this man is beautiful, his voice is mesmerising. his band are incredible, i basically love simon neil. (he smells really good)

you say there's no rush. but there is... i don't want to waste anytime. i want to live life to the fullest, or at least try. so try not to take to long m'kay?

it's actually stupid how distracted i can get, the dyslexia woman said that distraction is linked to dyslexia, but still seriously? i started this like forty minutes ago, and i got distracted by twitter, facebook, the new harry potter trailer...i could go on.

i found, well i say found, i was just looking through my portfolio and found my sketchbook of found notes. i'll upload some photos of some of them in a bit. i think i'll make this an ongoing project

today i would like some post, some more vitamin water, wagamama and a photograph with britney (i'm seeing her show tonight). it's highly possible that the first three will be achieved, shame about the last one...

i am ridiculously excited for these two films. harry potter, for the fact that its harry potter and the fact that each film gets better and better. and new moon for the fact that its the second in the saga of twilight, dfjhbadlfbfbf.

 

new director for new moon means promicing things, robert pattinson is always a plus and the werewolves, fuck yeah. harry potter has the same director as they did for 'the order of the phoenix' which is very good to hear as it was the best filmed out of all five so far. 

anywhoos i am so so so so excited. i shall be rereading the half blood prince very soon and the twilight saga again and again. to the point where i'll need new copies... i'll have a jake or edward any day thanks.