fixed with needle and thread..

yesterday i went to london with natalie and helen. we had a lovely time in notting hill, wagamama and other such places. i got this lovely plaid blazer, partly because it was so cold, which brings me on to my next point. never wear flip flops in london in may, even if it looks sunny at home, because if you have my luck, rain will soon follow.

i'm looking forward to finishing university, don't get me wrong, i've had a wonderful time, i just want to move onto the next step. sam comes back in a few days, so i shall ask her to sit down with me and help me with my applications and my CV and in return i shall buy her a wagamama, i think she'd like the idea.

i am so ready for summer, to sit on the grass and enjoy the sun, read a book and listen to music. it's not long to wait now. 

p.s i'm ridiculously addicted to special k, and i only just tried it for the first time today.

let's get crazy, yeah just kick up you're heels!

i like nothing better than listening to miley cyrus/hannah montana, hilary duff, and any other cheesey popstars to make me forget about my worries. nat inspired the so bad its good music tonight but to be honest i don't find it bad i genually like hilary duff, miley cyrus and jojo.. I'm going to watch the lizzie mcquire movie tonight after london, i don't care what people say, i like the cheese, so kudos to you disney!

When i listen to this music and sing along i don't have a care in the world, and i like that feeling. the hannah montana movie comes out friday, and i am going to see it, even if i have to get my momma to come with me :)

i'm taking a ride with my best friend.

a house boat + a rubber dingy + night time, do not mix. att all. the evening started really well, nat, helen, jen, christina, harriet, and me where all having fun at  'the sisterhood of sabrina, pizza, and tea party' we shared plenty of laughs, stories and jokes. we ate lots of pizza, chocolate and such, and watched sabrina the teenaged witch, the movie. so around elevenish we were chatting away when we heard a tapping on a window, we got up and saw a rubber dingy, we screamed, we turned of the light and screamed some more. i have never been more scared in my entire life before. after around ten/fifteen minutes of screaming and being freaked out, we find out it was only ben and danny. i now hate them both.

i have my itunes on shuffle and depeche mode 'never let me down again' came on, how appropriate. i was looking forward to tomorrow, now i'm not, alot can change in just under a minute. i wish some people where more considerate and that i was less emotional. the start of the week is a downer already and it's only just eleven minutes past two in the morning. joy. please pick up, thankyou.

i don't know what to do at the moment to be honest, i could go for option a or option b, option b seems like the thing to do, like the thing i should do, so is that the only reason why i'm warming up to the idea? even if i did choose option b, option a would be in my mind constantly. someone make all these decisions for me and take away all these unpleasant feelings...

i wanna fall in love with you, so how do we begin?

i hate that i'm soo insecure. i hate that i get really paranoid. i hate that i read way to much into things. i hate that i over analyse everything.

(on lighter news, i found my camera!)

keep running up that hill..

so i went for a run today, and i did so much better than last time, holla! i ran around 45% of a mile and power walked the rest, along with a 50 meter sprint at the end, and the walking back home from christina's to mine (i walked to her's too). i shall also start yoga soon, as soon as harriet's mum returns from her holiday!

my back decided to cause me severe pain today, as it hurt to breathe but surprisingly my wagamamas helped. i think natalie is somehow sending me twin sympathy pains for her back... it's painful, i hope her pain goes away once we've done yoga for a bit.

i had some good news today, we get an extra five days for our projects at uni, so i might be able to get something completed.

from tomorrow i shall have quite an eventful week, which i'm looking forward to, as well, my life is boring, aha.

my confusion still continues. joy.

i just can't sleep, i'm so excited!

thrusday 4th june, o2 arena will be one of the best days of my life. know why? BRITNEY FUCKING SPEARS. i'm so excited, i've been listening to her since around half twelve, and hers songs have got me pumped with energy!

give me me me what i want..

and that is my camera. i have lost my camera. this is not good. with a uni project due in next friday, this is not good at all. it was last seen on my floor, by the window and my bed. a reward of smarties will be offered to whoever finds it. whats annoying is that i know its here somewhere.

bring me my nuts on a silver platter...

england has finally started selling 'mikado', every year when i'd go on holiday i'd eat a ton of the stuff. it's too good! hooray for england.

right now, at this moment in time king julian is the only thing keeping me sane, which is odd as he clearly is not.

I'll bet you are just fine.

my neighbours washing line is a rainbow at the moment. blue. red. purple. yellow. purple. green. red. red. blue. yellow. green. i've been staring at it for a good forty minutes, instead of doing all of the millions of things i need to do.

my university project is on journeys, and its due in next friday, shit. i get paid on friday so that means i can buy the things i need for my final piece. and then on monday i'm visiting david, so that means i'll have some more photographs for my project, if i can remember i'll get some film for my polaroid camera. i also need to get my hands on a giant map of london, so i will go in search for that soon.

i'm going to a funeral tomorrow, my nan's funeral. i've never been to one of these before, even when my grandad died, i was too young to go then. so i don't really know what to expect. and do i have to cry? i don't think i will, i haven't really cried about the whole thing. she had a long life and was in pain near the end, so i'm glad she's resting. the not crying thing has freaked me a little bit, i'm very emotional, and the smallest thing could get me upset, so for this to not is a little weird.

i'm going on holiday in eight weeks for my brothers wedding. i wish i could just take one now. i need to get away from everything and not have to think for a while. clearing my mind would do me some good. 

i need to forget about that letter i'm waiting for.